Last night I was told that he didn’t want to take it to the next step until we could stop having spats. At first, this didn’t have me very upset. It was something that I would expect to come out of his mouth. A statement that was purely negative with no resolution in sight. 

I will admit that I have a tendency to be the most sensitive person in this household, but that is mainly because I do not feel emotionally secure. I feel like I have been taking the largest, most positive steps since the beginning. He lingered with the past for the first nine months that I lived here, and then decided to shape up. It was appreciated.. until last week when he was caught looking at photos of said Past and trying to cover his story while it was happening. Yet, I am too emotional and cause too many spats.

A marriage will not fix unfaithfulness. 

We are two very different people: a sentimentalist and mr. negativity. I don’t understand why I am completely okay with embracing his short comings, but he can not for a second embrace mine. These things always happen when I am a second from getting my foot in the futures door, but here it is again. A promotion equals thoughts of paying my own rent. No need to worry someone will resent that purchase. I always thought that I couldn’t leave because I couldn’t end up at my parents, but the stars are finally with me.